unrequited love

this sensation of drowning

well, you leave me breathless after all

sleepless nights of cyclical thoughts

knowing my love for you will unlikely be reciprocated

if i ever had the guts to tell you, that is

i just lay here, breaking my own heart

writing messages that i will never send

if i did, i know it will leave me feeling small

but you are so goddamn infatuating

looking up at the stars

all i can think about is if you've seen the same ones

the ones that twinkle as your eyes do

and bring me comfort in the darkest of times

my bedroom walls know more than my closest friends

they have heard the weeps and sighs

the floating and the falling

i wish you knew how much i love you as they do

i do everything i possibly can to keep me in your thoughts

leaving me feeling like an absolute overbearing idiot

you like me, right?

i guess i will never know